Hunting Twinkle
On a summer afternoon, 12 years ago, I was out with the dogs on the sand hills, about a half a mile from home.
Over the weekends, kids love to bring their four-wheelers up to these undulating sand hills, racing them up and down the trails, but the rest of the time there’s a great stillness except for the screech of a hawk soaring overhead, the cawing of ravens (they used to love swooping down and teasing the dogs), the song of a coyote watching from a distance, and the rustling of a breeze through the clumps of yellow flowers.
Pine trees group together in the bowl-shaped dips of the hills, and junipers on the tops. In the sandy soil, every mound of grass, sage or flowers hides a secret entranceway to what lies below: the underground home of a family of rabbits, mice or skunks. The dogs loved to sniff at these burrows, obviously learning a lot more about the inhabitants than I ever did.
Also lying around in the sand are the remains of other homes – the shards of pottery, grinding stones, broken mixing bowls and charcoal residue of old fire pits tell of the ancestral Pueblo people who lived here for hundreds of years until a drought settled on the land 700 years ago and forced them to move to what is now New Mexico.
I was scrambling up the side of one of the dips after standing in the shade of some pine trees. Twinkle had reached the top ahead of me, peered back down and then ran off to play with one of the other dogs. Then a single shot rang out and I heard a single yelp. She stopped at my feet, blood bubbling out from a hole in her side. Then she sank to the ground and her eyes went blank.
It took me a moment to realize what had happened. “Stop shooting,” I yelled, scrambling to the top. Over another mound of sand, about 200 yards away, two teenage boys turned and began running away.
Twinkle was staggering toward me. She stopped at my feet, blood bubbling out from a hole in her side. Then she sank to the ground and her eyes went blank.
I carried her body back home, then ran back to where the horror had happened. Alongside the paw prints of a cotton tail rabbit were the prints of two people, stopping at the trail where they’d parked their truck. That place was now empty but for some wheel prints. I took a photo of the wheel prints.
Back home, the other dogs were standing next to Twinkle, occasionally pawing and sniffing her body.
I drove into town to the sheriff’s office. One of the deputies came back out with me to the scene of the crime. On the way, he asked if there had been any cows out there. “It’s legal to shoot dogs if they’re chasing cows,” he explained.
He also told me that it’s legal to shoot “varmints.” That would include the coyotes I always hear singing out there. “Did your dog look like a coyote?” he wondered.
He inspected the wheel prints and had me walk him through what had happened. But there wasn’t much that could be done. I put an ad in the local newspaper offering a reward for information leading to the arrest etc. From the calls I received – some of them anonymous – it seemed that there was little doubt who had done this: lots of people knew the two boys at the high school ... not well liked ... but there was no proof.
And even if there were, the young men would have pleaded that it was a mistake and that they hadn’t see a person with her when she'd appeared over the sand hill, so they’d "thought she was a varmint, Your Honor."
And since Twinkle, a mutt, had no monetary value, that would probably have been the end of it.
Twelve years later, I still avoid that place in the sand hills.
And 12 years later, this country is trying to figure out, yet again, what to do about guns. Perhaps, as some would have us believe, I should have had a gun there myself that day. After all, they tell us, “the only thing that can stop a bad guy with a gun is a good guy with a gun.”
Whatever our country decides in the coming weeks, you can be sure that the right to go out and shoot innocent animals of kinds shall not be infringed.







Ingrid, I couldn't agree more with your eloquently stated comment. It also sickens me no end that when gun control to protect innocent lives is discussed, it's nearly always with the caveat that hunting is somehow sacrosanct, and so the right to shoot non-human animals will be protected if not downright encouraged. What about the rights of the animals to live? What about the rights of the likes of you and me and Josie and Michael and Twinkle to peacefully and safely enjoy the tranquility of natural settings and untroubled, nonviolent interactions with our fellow creatures, without that experience being, in your perfect word, "shattered" by gunfire and violent death? It angers and frustrates me no end that the rights of hunters and their macabre hobby consistently eclipse the rights all all others. And if people's hearts are broken and their ire raised (justifiably so) over the slaughter of innocents in theaters and schools, where is the same reaction to the slaughter of innocents in woods and fields? What difference that they're of a different species? I will never understand it.
What a heartbreaking story! And sadly, your last line is our reality: "you can be sure that the right to go out and shoot innocent animals of kinds shall not be infringed." I spend a lot of time in the outdoors, and nothing shatters my world like the sound of shotguns or rifles -- first, because I know what the tragic outcome is likely to be for a wild animal in my midst, and second, because of the gun's inherent intrusion in the soundscape. I would like nothing more than for our discussion of guns to include how perverted an idea it is to accept, without question, our rampant violence toward wildlife. Every discussion of gun control includes the cursory give-away to "sportsmen," even though the "sport" is so often a cruel one with so many unintended consequences, as depicted here. Beautiful and thought-provoking post.
I'm so sorry such a horrible thing happened to poor Twinkle, and to you. Reading this made me heartsick. I can only imagine the horror of experiencing it.
Our rescue dog Josie was shot in the hip at some point in her young life (before she ever ended up at the shelter and then with us). She never received any medical attention and so her hind leg healed twisted and shorter. Various vets and specialists determined that it wasn't causing her any distress, and she does use it sometimes for balance, pivoting and even walking on. People often ask us when we're out walking her what happened to her leg, and when we tell her that someone shot her, they fall silent. (Guns - which I detest - easily outnumber people here).
I'm very sad about what happened to Twinkle, but am grateful that her loving guardian is such an eloquent voice for the vulnerable and victimized. Maybe someday the fearful and paranoid among us will be able to open their hearts and replace their fear and defensiveness for the true strength that comes from compassion. Meanwhile, thank you for all that you do.